All Day Long

So look. I’m going to complain a bit here. If that bothers you, I would politely suggest you look elsewhere for a day or so. I don’t plan to make this a regular event here (hilarious concept, I know), I just need a little time to vent.

This pregnancy is rough. And let me just say, I have a good sense of perspective here. I do not have severe morning sickness, I do not have hyperemesis gravidarum. I don’t need IV fluids or hospitalizations. I know very clearly how much worse this could be, really I do. But that is not changing that fact that currently the morning sickness is zapping my ability to be a functional grown up and making me miserable.

Every morning I wake up sometime in the wee hours of the morning and take a Zofran and go back to sleep. Without this step, the rest of the morning is an impossibility. Then, when I get up around 7 (any earlier and I can’t really even get out of bed without dry heaving endlessly), I can sit in bed and feel totally fine, but the instant I stand up to go get Eli, the nausea hits. And 9 times out of 10, I spend at least 10-15 minutes dry heaving, trying to stay calm as tears stream down my face (not crying, just retching makes my eyes water like whoa) and waiting for it to pass.

Most mornings it’s better by 8. This morning I had a second session when I tried to pack myself some snacks for later in the day. I don’t know what it was about chocolate covered pretzels, but it wasn’t pleasant and I was almost late for work. Again. Thankfully my boss is also pregnant and very understanding. So far I haven’t been late for a patient, just late for set up.

Once I manage to eat breakfast, things usually improve. And for a few hours, I feel pretty normal and it is delightful. I look forward to 8:30 to 11 every day. Lunch is sometimes easy and sometimes a struggle, it just varies day to day. Last week the thing I wanted for lunch so badly also almost made me hurl and I was saved by a dissolvable Zofran I had been saving for several months. I have no idea what was different that day just as I have no idea what makes one day better and one day worse. It’s just a nausea crapshoot.

Late afternoon is hard. I usually get nauseous before I get hungry and it reaches a point where it’s hard to talk because that makes me gag, which is really tough when treating patients. Today I actually canceled my last patient because I knew I wouldn’t be able to make it through their session. I rescheduled them and I feel horrible, but I know they don’t want me gagging on their kid, even if non-contagiously. And this is with 8mg of Zofran pretty much 24 hours a day. Most nights dinner is followed by sitting completely still for a half an hour because that is the only thing that makes me not feel like puking. And then it’s on and off for the rest of the night until I go to sleep.

At this point in my pregnancy with Eli I had gagged maybe twice total and had gained like 8 pounds. So far I’ve actually lost a pound and have yet to have a single day in the past 3 weeks where I don’t spend a significant portion of my morning retching. And while this is manageable and not the end of the world and I KNOW that, as someone who hates vomiting more than anything on the face of the earth, it blows. I know that this experience is typical, but I feel so blindsided by it because the nausea was so mild with Eli, I just assumed that that was how I tolerated early pregnancy. And hey, I was wrong. So that discovery kind of sucks anew every day.

I keep reading that it should be letting up and it just isn’t yet. I find myself dreading going to sleep at night because the mornings are so hard and I just feel like there’s no end in sight. I’m afraid it’s not going to go away and I don’t know how I’d last 29.5 more weeks.

I really have to say, the one truly wonderful thing in all of this is my husband. He has gone above and beyond to help with diapers, picking up things I casually mention sound edible and just being all around amazing. He has given way more than his share of baths and dealt with messes that would normally be my job without complaint even though I know it sucks. I could not get through this without him and I am going to have to buy him something really shiny when this is all over. Or maybe I’ll just get him a baby.

Anyway. That’s what’s going on here. It’s why I’ve been more quiet than usual. I’m working on sucking it up. It’s not going well so far, but I’m trying.

9 Responses to “All Day Long”

  • Juli:

    Hey you’re trying. My vertigo and headaches/migraines are so bad that I have 3 different antiematics on hand at all times. I hope it gets better or eases very soon for you.

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  • Hi Katie,

    So sorry you’re having such a rough time with the pregnancy. Hoping that it passes quickly for you. Glad to hear that Slappy is being a champ :)

    My thoughts are with you.

    Cheers from Australia!

    Snappz.

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  • Kelley:

    I feel for you. I was sick (just like is!) until almost 26 weeks with this pregnancy. I actually lost about 15 pounds and am currently sitting about 10-14 under my pre pregnancy weight (depends on th day/scale).

    It sucks. Especially if you’re trying to work and take care of other kiddos at the same time (I don’t work, but have two other children that I homeschool, so that was fun).

    Have you tried adding an antacid to your zofran? I’ve found that the extra acid in my stomach was also making it worse, so Zantac to th rescue. And of course, Unisom/b6 combo. I took that at night so I had a fighting chance in the morning to get my zofran in me and be able to function on some level.

    I’m so sorry you’re going through this. It really, really, really sucks.

    ~Kelley (mommafitzy on twitter :-) )

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    Katie Reply:

    I am doing the Unisom and B6 at night. I don’t know if it’s helping, but I’m too scared to stop since the mornings are so rough as is. I’ll definitely consider the Zantac. I haven’t felt any acid reflux or indigestion (except for an unfortunate pizza incident), but it’s certainly worth trying! Thanks for the suggestions. Hope you’re feeling better!

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  • CK:

    I don’t know what I would have done if I had a toddler when I was pregnant! Can not fully imagine what you are going through! I was very sick with my pregnancy (even hospitalized a couple of times for dehydration). I was on diclectin (Canadian) up until I delivered! I think month six was the only month I felt good. In the beginning, due to my nauseousness, everyone kept saying I was having a girl… but I was pregnant with a boy! I hope things settle for you soon!

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  • akl:

    the WORST. the absolute worst. and yes, all the things about how it could be worse, but forget it. it’s so so hard to be pregnant and working and have a toddler. This time around, I was expecting to start feeling better around 10 weeks, but instead those last 3 weeks were the worst for me. By 13 weeks, I was back to normal. It’s just that at 10 weeks you get a huge surge of hormones from new baby, so it makes sense that the nausea would amp up at that time. Keep taking it a day at a time, enjoy those few hours of break in the morning, and wake up and do it again tomorrow.

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  • kat:

    ugh I was very nauseous with my son for the first 13 weeks. I’m sure you’ve already tried ginger, but the only thing that helped was chewing ginger gum almost constantly. My boss actually got it for me from a CVS or Walgreens. The gum certainly didn’t cure my nausea, just made it easier to deal with. Nausea was always worse in the early morning and late afternoon/night- I vividly remember dry heaving into the trash can in my office hoping my co-workers couldn’t hear me. I think this is the gum I used:
    http://www.walgreens.com/store/c/sea-band-anti-nausea-ginger-gum/ID=prod5694277-product
    hope it goes away soon!

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  • Rachel:

    Oh man, I’m so sorry you have such bad all-day sickness! :( I had this throughout my entire pregnancy. It did end up easing up after the first trimester but never fully went away. i was on zofran the entire time and that was the miracle drug for me. will your OB let you try other anti-nausea drugs? I also tried reglan and a couple others, but none worked as well as zofran for me.

    Here are some things that helped me with my nausea:
    1. Apple juice first thing in the morning before getting out of bed
    2. Sparkling water
    3. Motion sickness arm bands (i wore these religiously) http://www.sea-band.com/
    4. Acupuncture (i was never into acupuncture until it helped lift some of the nausea)
    5. Preggie Pops (tart-sweet hard candies) http://www.threelollies.com/

    I hope you start to feel better soon!

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  • the motion sickness bands might be helpful in addition to all the other things you are doing. gah, I feel bad for you as I remember all too well going thru this. I used to wake up early and take an injection of zofran and also a phenergan suppository…it worked for awhile but I must have gotten used to it because when it stopped working then nothing helped and I spent some quality time in the hospital. All just a distant memory now, and a beautiful daughter to show for it! Best wishes.

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