Today you are 4 months old! I have to say, this has been the coolest month so far, though I imagine I’ll be saying that for several months to come. Probably right up until the month you learn to say “no!” and run away from me. Right now you are just this perfect, immobile person, who smiles and coos and is just so entirely adorable.
This month you had a developmental explosion and as much as I thought you were alert and aware at 3 months, I now realize it had only just begun. You are into everything now. You don’t like to eat because you can’t watch tv, talk and smile while eating, so it takes you 25 minutes (and much frustration) to get you to finish a bottle. You don’t like to lay down because sitting and standing are SO MUCH more fun. You don’t like to be awake in a swing or bouncer seat because you could be practicing rolling over, which you keep trying to do in your swing/bouncer and it’s taken a few years off my life running to stop you from flipping over. This month will henceforth be known as the month I started buckling you into things like a good mother.
Your sleeping has gotten so very much better this month, for which I am beyond grateful. Two nights ago you slept from 9pm to 5:30am and it was the first time I had slept for more than 5-6 hours at a time since your birth. I pretty much felt invincible after that stretch of sleep. Most nights you go down between 7:30 and 9 (you would totally sleep earlier, but your selfish mother would rather you go to bed later and wake up later because she is not a morning person) get up once between 2 and 4 to eat, and then go back to sleep until somewhere between 7 and 9, depending upon the day. I live in suspended fear of a return to the previous 3 wake ups a night routine, but so far you haven’t regressed in about 3 weeks.
Naps continue to be a struggle. You will happily sleep in your swing or carseat or on me, but in a stationary bed? No way. And many many of these naps are less than an hour, often more like 15 minutes long and then you wake up smiling and all refreshed as though you had just slept for days. You did not get that trait from either of your parents, trust me.
You now grab toys when they’re within reach and play with them, by which I mean put them in your mouth. You love your O-ball and the bird that we had hanging from your stroller (before your cousin Mia pulled on it so much that it stretched out and just continuously hit you in the face) and you’re starting to get into your Sophie (giraffe), except you have a hard time putting it in your mouth and more often gouge out your eye balls with her ears.
You rolled over from your belly to your back for the first and second time this month, though you have yet to repeat it beyond those two times, even though it’s clear you know how. You are insanely close to rolling from your back to front, but you just seem to be content laying 9/10ths of the way rolled over, which seems so very uncomfortable to the rest of us.
You found both your feet this month and prefer to be holding them at all times if possible. Often your feet are what end your naps because you wake up just slightly and then feel this very odd need to grab both feet, as if to make sure they’re still there. Son, I promise, they aren’t going anywhere, please feel free to keep sleeping, I won’t let anyone take them while you snooze.
You had your first cold this month and you were just completely and totally pathetic. It was so sad to watch, and even more fun to experience with you because you, my friend, are a great sharer already. Apparently sneezing into mommy’s mouth is the best.
You’ve continued to be a major finger sucker/chewer this month, though you still love your pacifier. And you’ve really taken to your monkey blanket, which your dad named Glen (Glen your monkey friend). We even went out and bought an extra one because you have a tendency to drop Glen on the ground in varying public places and then your germ phobic mother won’t give him back until he gets washed.
This month you really found your voice and went from tiny high pitched talking to YELLING at us, though not in displeasure, just yelling because you discovered you could.
Your likes this month include: technology (anything with a glowing screen), dad (you love your dad so so so much), mom, Glen, Soothies, milk (which you’re kind of meh on right now), sitting, standing, mobiles, toys and anyone who smiles at you.
Your dislikes this month include: falling asleep (seriously, you are hilariously dramatic about it), being hungry, middle of the night diaper changes before eating (so. much. screaming.), laying down when you could be sitting up or standing, being in your carseat/stroller when you could be free.
I cannot begin to tell you how much I have enjoyed this month and how much fun it is to watch you grow up. You are undeniably adorable, but you’re also so sweet and so fun. You smile and laugh and bring such a tremendous amount of joy to our lives. Your grandparents, aunts and uncles just adore you, there’s constantly a line of people who want to hold and play with you and people are constantly complaining that they don’t get enough time with you. What I’m saying is that you are just so beyond loved by so many people.
Your father and I continue to be completely overwhelmed by how much we love you, by how much you have changed us. At least once a day, one of us exclaims that we love you so much or that you are just the best baby, because it’s true. You made us parents and we are so grateful every moment of every day, that we are your parents and you are our son. You are such a perfect little person, one that we could barely have imagined a year ago when we found out we were going to get to have you.
If you take nothing else from these letters, at least know that you are so incredibly loved and that your parents are grateful for every single second they get with you. We love you so very much and we can’t wait to see what next month brings.