Tomorrow is it. It my first full day of work. With patients and everything. I’m sort of ambivalent about it. Or maybe not ambivalent as much as, partially looking forward to it and partially dreading it, for a net effect of zero. On one hand, I’m ready to be out of the house some. As much as I love this baby, spending a week as a single parent helped me to see that WE NEED SPACE. Friday when I dropped him off for a half day at daycare so I could do computer training, I did not shed a tear. The last time I dropped him off at daycare I cried for an hour. On the other hand, I love my baby and am going to miss the crap out of him.

I’m probably most concerned about pumping at lunch because asking a perfect stranger who is my boss for the day if I can lock myself in a room and take my shirt off for 30 minutes is awkward. And even better, because I’m a “floater” I get to do this over again at every clinic I cover. Yay for repetitive awkward moments.

My baby has decided he likes his monkey blanket and I am so happy. I loved my blanket as a kid (still sleep with it, don’t judge me), and I just love that he has a comfort item. I’m going to go buy at least one if not two more sometime this week. Several times this week he has fussed and then once given his blanket, he has pulled it up towards his face (which freaks me right out) and goes to sleep. It’s awesome.

I’ve started Weight Watchers. And I’m eating peanut butter m&ms right now, so that’s how well it’s going.

There’s a hurricane headed towards my former home of New Orleans. We are watching nearly as closely as our friends in Louisiana and are sending all our hopes and positive energy their way. Especially with the 7 year anniversary of Katrina rapidly approaching. There is so very much at stake for everyone there and though they are tough enough to withstand more storms, there are places who don’t have the resources to do so. And so we’re hoping and praying that this storm turns around or dies in the gulf.

Tonight was the season finale of The Newsroom. Personally, I LOVE it and struggle to understand why anyone who is not a very conservative Republican wouldn’t. There is such an odd hatred of Aaron Sorkin, I just do not understand what evil he has done.

My baby is awake, despite the fact that it’s 9pm and we started the bedtime routine a solid 90 minutes ago. Fun times for all around here, though this is the 3rd night in a row of this and at least the last 2 have involved good stretches of sleep for all of us. I’ll take a drawn out bedtime routine for some sleep.

We’re going to Arizona next week and I have some MAJOR concerns about sleeping in a hotel without Eli’s little Bunny Bed. I’m hoping he’ll magically take to the hotel crib and then when we come home suddenly he’ll want to sleep flat like all the other little babies. But if he doesn’t, I have no idea how we’re going to survive those 3 nights.

This week I’ll be working 8-4 Monday, 8-1 Tuesday and 8-4 Friday. On Wednesday and Thursday Eli and I will go back to my school for him to do (another) research study involving kicking. Hopefully he’ll consider kicking for them this time. No one is holding their breath.

Since Eli was born, after the later middle of the night feeding, he and I have moved downstairs so that my husband could get ready and make noise without waking up Eli and me. And I started writing this paragraph before Eli decided he was not content just being awake in his bed and now I have NO idea where I was going here. Nothing about this is interesting. Nothing about this is particularly important. So I guess I’m done with it.

And now that the baby is finally in bed, I’m going to go to sleep. Have a great week!

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