When I wrote this, it was initially intended for someone specific. But as I read over it, I realized that it may speak to many people in my life, and some days to me too. I hope it speaks to some of you as well.
Dear Loved One,
I know you are struggling right now. I know that nothing is as easy as it seems like it should be. I know that getting up each day, going to work, going through the motions of life is nothing short of exhausting right now. I know and I’m so sorry.
You tell me that you’re not sure you can do it, but I know you can. I know you can because I see what you don’t. I see the strength that you have, the strength that will get you through this crappy day or week or month. I see the tenacity and perseverance that you can’t feel anymore, because you’re too deep in this cavern to find it.
You tell me that you feel like you’re losing control of your life, but you can’t see that by reaching out, by asking for help, by trying to move on, you are exerting control. By choosing to get out of bed and going to work, even though it’s going to suck and feel awful, you’re in control. By choosing not to just lay down and let this anxiety, this depression, whatever label you need to put on it, by not letting that run your life, you are more in control than you have ever been.
And yes, it feels awful. I know it does because I’ve been there too. There are no words to describe how awful it feels to be where you are today, or where you were yesterday.
It will get better.
I’m not blowing smoke up your ass. I care about you, and other people around you care more about you than you’ll ever know. And we’re going to help you get through this. It will get better because you are strong. It will get better because there are people who care, including me. It will get better because you have too many great things ahead of you for it not to. There simply is no other choice and you have to believe that too. You have to accept, to trust me, that this really will get better.
You need to know that you are loved. You are cared for and about. You are never alone in any of this. Even when you think that no one is there, there is always someone thinking about you, praying for you, loving you. You are never alone.
I just wanted you to read this, to know that no matter how bad you feel today or tomorrow or next week, that it will be okay. It will get better. Even if you can’t see how, people like me, people who love you, can. And we will be here for you because we love you too much to ever walk away.
Lean on us. Let us carry you when your burden is too great. Let yourself fall sometimes, because we are here to catch you. And then when you’re ready, get up and try again.
I love you dearly, we’ll get through this together. I promise.