Tick tock goes the lazy girl’s clock
On my first day of my clinical rotation, I was speaking with a patient, an older man, who was just hilarious. I asked him a little about his family, he answered and then turned and asked the same question. I replied that I had no children, but had been married for two years.
He looked at me and said, “Two years and no kids? What are you doing? You’re just lazy.”
He was kidding, of course, and we had a good laugh. I wondered if he could hear my biological clock ticking the whole time. Because dude.
tick tock tick tock Tick Tock TICK TOCK TICK TOCK TICK FREAKING TOCK TICK ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME TOOOOOOCK
Or maybe I’m giving off baby wanting pheromones or something. I’m not sure.
This whole baby fever thing has been helped considerably by spending all weekend with three adorable babies.
I mean really, how can you resist these eyes? And attitude, I mean really.
And these CHEEKS!?
And well, I didn’t manage to get a single focused picture of Gigi this weekend, but rest assured, the kid is freaking adorable too. The first day we were there she toddled over to me and reached her arms up for me to pick her up. My heart just melted into a tiny puddle.
So it shouldn’t come as a great surprise to me that all I dreamed about last night was being pregnant (which I am tragically not). I dreamed I was, and then wasn’t, and then was again. In the end, just before I woke up, I was celebrating with my family and internets, I was THRILLED. So waking up was sort of a let down.
I know that now is not the time for me to have children. I know I am not in a position emotionally, physically or financially to care for another human being besides my husband. I know that I need to finish school because, fun fact: it’s not free.
But being (slightly) in touch with reality does not seem to do anything for the desire to have a baby right now right now rightnow.
I guess it’s just a good thing that my birth control is REALLY tough to sabotage.
I mean, not that I would do that but, well, I’d totally consider doing that.
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Welcome! I'm Katie, a 28 year old, full-time graduate student who just happened to have brain surgery in November of 2007 to give my ginormous brain a little more space. This blog chronicles my daily life, from relentless headaches to being a doctor's wife. Sit down, get comfortable and stay for a while.
I hear you. It is not my time, either, I don’t even really want it to be, and yet I can’t help myself.
I wrote a post called “babies” a couple of weeks ago about my conflicting feelings on the topic, and I got a really sage comment this morning. The wife of a recent law school graduate said she felt the same way I did, but as the post-graduation things to look forward to became more tangible and less foggy-abstract-uncertain-no-fun-hopes, her baby fever dissipated. I can’t help but agree with her that right now I don’t have anything tangible to look forward to, just pie-in-the-sky stuff. Just thought I’d share, in case it might strike a chord with you like it did with me.
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You can borrow Mr. Attitude anytime. He loves you and told me that he really misses you.
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I’ll drop Lady Cheeks off at your house later tonight.
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Reality and baby fever do not go hand in hand. I had a baby four weeks ago and I’m downright JEALOUS of pregnant women. And I’m done. DONE! But also ridiculously sad that this is the last time and wondering if we’re really, really done with two. I’m smack dab in the middle of all things baby and I’ve got baby fever, too. It’s hard to escape.
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My clock has been going off for a while. I’ve got it on snooze until further notice. With my surgery in a few weeks it’s been advised that I wait 1 1/2 to 2 years to have a kid. In 2 years I’ll be almost 34…that’s like really, really, really OLD in baby making years. Thankfully my brother’s girlfriend is popping out a kid in December, that should hold me over for a while.
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You just have to promise me that when you are a mom (and you WILL be one), you won’t blog about, think about, or declare that you are a bad one.
You have a tendency to do that with yourself, in case you hadn’t noticed.
I have complete confidence in you.
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Katie Reply:
July 2nd, 2010 at 6:35 am
Who me? I would never.
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