Comments on: This complicated

By: Kelly @ The Startup Wife

Kelly @ The Startup Wife — Tue, 09 Feb 2010 10:56:17 +0000

Just found and subscribed to your blog! Looking forward to reading more.

You poor thing–I am so sorry you went through that. Thank God it was likely only dehydration (I hope your tests come back clean!). I’ve had some similar experiences–all came back mostly fine, for the most part–and I totally know the feeling, and it’s awful. You were a billion times calmer than I’d have been.

And, I totally agree with all the great comments–of course you didn’t fail! It was unfortunate, but it certainly wasn’t your fault–it sounds like you’ve been making every effort to stay hydrated.

By: pixielation

pixielation — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 09:39:05 +0000

ditto. You are not failing at anything. Most people don’t have anywhere near as much to deal with in their lives. There is no failure at all here.

I hope it all starts going the other way soon, you deserve that!

By: purplebreath

purplebreath — Sun, 07 Feb 2010 22:51:16 +0000

ooh–nailed it!

By: Sam

Sam — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 21:32:08 +0000

Don’t be so hard on your self – “I’ve been trying so hard to take good care of myself, I’ve failed again”. What a bunch of crap! You did NOT bring this on yourself. I’m sure if you KNEW how dehydrated you were you would have done something about it. Geez! It’s small wonder your having trouble fightng off infections. Your poor body has taken a beating, not to mention your poor mind, and yet you stick in there and soldier on. Your a freaking trooper!

By: Kathy

Kathy — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 21:27:43 +0000

I agree with Janet. You didn’t fail to take care of yourself…and saying you failed sounds like you’re beating yourself up over something that you had no control over. Your body beats you up enough so don’t you start too!

You did what you could and I’m really impressed with your guts and courage!

By: Mindy

Mindy — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 21:22:28 +0000

Sometimes things just plain suck.

You haven’t failed, you just didn’t realize you needed a bit more help. You can’t will your body to do what you want it to do (obviously if you could you wouldn’t still have your headache). Just try to feel what’s going on and get the help you need to.

On a side note, when I was 8 months pregnant my heartrate got up to 300….for four hours. They finally shocked my heart to get it back to a regular rhythm and then did surgery two days later. Luckily my son was fine, but I’ve never forgotten that feeling (heart beating so fast you thought you were going to die). It was awful. My son has a birthmark on his knee-in the shape of a heart.

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Hang in there.

Mindy

By: Janet Isserlis

Janet Isserlis — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 15:23:59 +0000

I’m so sorry that this all happened.

not sure, though, that i’d agree that you’ve failed again. you’re tried, you’ve persevered. it would have been way less complicated to *not* try, to give school a pass for the year – and even if you have to (and I know you don’t want to) – but however it plays out, i hope you can see that the things your body does are beyond your control.
you’ve done all you can, you’ve taken care, you’re working on it.

that just doesn’t add up to ‘fail’ i don’t think

hope the weekend brings some calm…

By: MuseOddity

MuseOddity — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 12:27:32 +0000

I certainly hope you recover quickly! I wanted to let you know that I pray you never experience this again. If you do, however, and have any questions please email me. I have a condition called POTS/Vasovagal Syncope. I deal daily with episodes that share some similarities to what you described. I have been down a long road of specialists and many treatment plans and it would have been very helpful to have someone help me navigate the diagnosis. This is an area, that by default, I have much experience. If you ever have any questions please ask, I have been dealing with this the past 5 years. Also check out this website if you get a chance, http://www.dinet.org Again, hopefully this was an isolated event but if for any reason it turns out not to be know that there is a place to go for answers. Hope you feel better soon:)

By: Joy

Joy — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 11:06:20 +0000

I don’t know what to say. I hope that you are able to get back on track with your health very very soon. Take care. ((hugs))

By: Mary Jo

Mary Jo — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 06:51:00 +0000

I am so glad that it wasn’t anything more serious. Honestly I was scared of it being a heart attack, but didn’t want to say anything. I wish I could give some words of advice. I wish you were done with school, because I think your body is having trouble fighting with all of the stresses. Just do what you can, and try not to worry about the rest. Take care. (Hugs)