Just got a call from the people at nuclear medicine. I have to go back tomorrow morning for one last set of (painless just boring) scans.
But, the tech told me that the radiologist looked over my scans and said that everything looks “perfectly fine.”
Perfectly. Fine.
I am devastated.
This is why I don’t hope for things.
Because it just hurts too much to have your hopes constantly demolished.









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Take a look at your calendar & let me know when you want me to come visit after January 1. I’m all yours – In-N-Out, cake baking & general laziness will rule the visit.
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By Daisy on 11.24.09 11:56 am | Permalink
Ooops…the end of that was supposed to read: I’m here for you, and when you can’t, I’ll hope for you. That is what friends are for.
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By Daisy on 11.24.09 11:57 am | Permalink
I am so sorry you’re having to endure more scans and frustration. I can’t imagine living with what you are going through.
Sending you so many good thoughts and hugs.
I’ll keep hoping they find something and you can get some relief.
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By PrincessJenn on 11.24.09 12:03 pm | Permalink
Well, there HAS to be SOMETHING SOMEWHERE!!! Keeping fingers crossed for you.
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By pgoodness on 11.24.09 12:11 pm | Permalink
i’m so so so sorry for your disappointment. i wish there was more i could do. still sending good vibes…
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By nic @mybottlesup on 11.24.09 12:24 pm | Permalink
::sigh::
It sucks to hear “everything is fine” when you know damn well that it is absolutely not fine.
I know that feeling all too well and I also know there’s nothing I can say to make you feel better. But if I could, I would.
Hang in there.
xoxo
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By Undomestic Diva on 11.24.09 12:30 pm | Permalink
I’m so sorry. I’ve been following along on Twitter and your blog and was hoping beyond hope that you would get the answers that you needed. Thing is, there is a problem, and you know it. They just haven’t done the right tests yet. I know we can’t say anything to get rid of your pain, frustration, and disappointment, but you have a lot of people (I’m sure more than you even realize) who are pulling for you.
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By Leslie on 11.24.09 1:03 pm | Permalink
I am so very sorry. I can’t even imagine.
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By GreenInOC on 11.24.09 2:34 pm | Permalink
Sending tons of love your way. Hang in there sweetie…I know it’s easier said than done.
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By mama2addie on 11.24.09 2:41 pm | Permalink
One thing you should know about me by now. I don’t give up hope. Ever. So, I will hope for you when you can’t hope for yourself. I will hope with you when you do hope. And I will be forever grateful to God when our hope produces results, an answer, a solution, and the life you deserve for yourself.
Hopefully expecting the best. . . starting with a technician that speaks before knowing.
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By Sue G on 11.24.09 3:49 pm | Permalink
Argh. If the answers aren’t with the radiologist, maybe another person looking can confirm the scans look OK. Something is there, causing your pain, even if the scans don’t show it. May your journey continue with good docs until you get some answers. You will get answers, I pray for this. Meanwhile, breathe, rest and let your loved ones surround you.
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By Mon on 11.24.09 5:19 pm | Permalink
I’m so sorry.
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By Rose on 11.24.09 5:25 pm | Permalink
Don’t worry what the tech said…I don’t think they’re supposed to give out information like that!
If the Dr. says the same thing…well, then I’d be stomping mad and asking why your levels of CNS are so low. And I’d refuse to leave until I had answers!
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By Beverly on 11.24.09 5:41 pm | Permalink
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