I’m tired of this headache. This horrible horrible headache.
I’m tired of talking about it.
I’m tired of thinking about it.
I know you’re tired of hearing about it. Sorry.
I’m tired of playing phone tag with my neurologist’s office.
I’m tired of being jerked around by the nuclear medicine scheduling office and still not having the damn test scheduled, even though I was promised that it would be scheduled today.
I’m tired of worrying about the damn test.
I’m tired of taking pills I know won’t help.
I’m tired of having so many questions.
I’m tired of having so few answers.
I’m tired of being awake for half of the night.
I’m tired of feeling like a burden on the people in my life. On you who read.
I’m tired of people feeling sorry for me.
I’m tired of feeling sorry for me.
I’m tired of this pain.
I’m tired of my life, or what it has become.
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oh love… i wish i had something to offer. comfort. relief. a hug.
i feel your exhaustion just in this post and i’m sorry. just so sorry.
and thinking of you.
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By nic @mybottlesup on 11.12.09 7:42 pm | Permalink
I am sorry. I hope you find relief soon.
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By Mandi Bone on 11.12.09 7:50 pm | Permalink
Katie, I am just learning who you are and I must say I think you are an amazing person.
I, too, wish I could offer some comfort or something.
I do hope that something is figured out with this for you soon.
<3 & hugs
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By Kel on 11.12.09 7:50 pm | Permalink
Here’s the thing, I’m tired of knowing that there is nothing I can do to help you. I’m so frustrated on your behalf to watch this thing suck the sparkle out of you. If posting about your headache helps in even the tiniest way, then bring it on.
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By Carolyn on 11.12.09 8:34 pm | Permalink
I don’t even know you, and I can tell the pain is killing your sparkle. I hope you feel better.
Robin
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By robin on 11.12.09 9:24 pm | Permalink
We don’t feel sorry for you. We care. We listen and try to understand. I personally enjoy getting to know you, but I saw we because I know there is many of us.
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By mel on 11.12.09 9:28 pm | Permalink
not a burden…ever!
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By joanne on 11.12.09 10:11 pm | Permalink
Oh Katie, I wish I could take your pain for even a few hours just to give you a little relief. I don’t know how you have fought it this long. It speaks so much of your character. I know you don’t believe that, but it really does. You can’t keep this all in, it wouldn’t be good for you. Please keep letting it out. We don’t mind. I know how it goes, and honey you are doing so much better than the rest of us ever would. I wish I could give you a big hug, hopefully this mental one will do.
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By Sarah @scunning on 11.12.09 10:43 pm | Permalink
What everyone else said.
Your spirit is phenomenal and shines through your words, and the strength of it is an inspiration to me, personally.
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By Joy on 11.13.09 2:37 am | Permalink
Give ME the phone number, I’ll get you an appointment immediately – I’m the “go to beatch” amongst my family and friends.
Writing this, maybe you DO need someone to advocate for you and make your appointments and not be willing to take any excuses.
I hope you get what you need soon and can breath relief soon.
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By GreenInOC on 11.13.09 4:42 pm | Permalink
YOU are worth all the worry, the prayer, the time, and the love. No matter what.
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By purplebreath on 11.16.09 11:33 pm | Permalink
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