Taking Fight, Flight
Tomorrow night, I’m flying to New Orleans.
Before you ask, yes, flying is a horrible idea. Yes, I am aware of this. Yes, I’m doing it anyway.
I NEED this trip.
I need to go back to that city, my city, and I need to get out of this one.
I need to see my lovely friend (who comments here under the name of SSB, and who I cannot even begin to describe to you how much I love) get married to her fiancee, who I also love dearly.
I need something to look forward to.
Because after this weekend is the call to the doctor to schedule the cisternogram. And after that is a big scary test, with big scary answers and probably really big scary surgery.
After this weekend is 4 exams in 2 weeks. (That is assuming that the cisternogram doesn’t sideline me for a week like I’m pretty positive it will.)
Right now, I can’t read, it’s taken me HOURS to try to write this and it’s only 8:45pm and I’m in bed because I cannot fathom even trying to be upright. Even though this trip is, by all logic, a terrible idea, it’s what I need.
I need to make stupid decisions. I need for my brain, my pain, to not be in control of my life.
I know I won’t see normal for a long time, but I need to be able to pretend like I have a chance at it. Because I have nothing else right now.
10 Responses to “Taking Fight, Flight”
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Welcome! I'm Katie, a 27 year old, full-time graduate student who just happened to have brain surgery in November of 2007 to give my ginormous brain a little more space. This blog chronicles my daily life, from relentless headaches to falling over in public to being a doctor's wife. Sit down, get comfortable and stay for a while.
Sometimes we need to do things that aren’t exactly “good” for us.
Here is hoping all goes well. Have fun!!!
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Hey, guess what. I’ve been reading, and yeah, you sure do whine a lot. BUT. You deserve to. This is your place to do it, and fuck those trolls.
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Katie, you have to live this life so that you have peace and happiness. If you need it, you need it. Love to you, babe. And suckit hard trollers!
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Do what you need to do. Only you knows what is best for you. I love few people that accept me for for me. No matter what. That is a friendship.
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You do deserve it, and I hope it goes well. Sending warm thoughts and hugs your way!
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Good luck! I hope you have a blast!!!
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Fly, be free. Honestly, you need some joy in your life.
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Have a great time! Show that headache who’s boss!!!!
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Go you! Enjoy N.O. Wishing all the best for your trip.
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Katie, for some reason I have been unable to access your blog for a few weeks. Unexpectedly, today it worked, and I got to catch up with you. I am so sorry for all the pain and uncertainty and despair you are feeling. I hope your time in New Orleans is peaceful and refreshing and affirming. I’ll be thinking of you now and as things progress.
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